What happens in a sex and relationship therapy clinic? What cases are discussed? What insights are uncovered?

Well, now you can be a 'fly on the wall' with my new video series - Fly on the Wall Friday!

In this series I reflect on cases I've seen through the week at the LoveLife Clinic and share insights from them, to inspire you in your own love life.

The first seven episodes in the series are:

1.  The Case of the Missing Partners

In episode one I compare two cases where two men were sent to me by their wives to 'fix' their sexual problems. The outcome was very different in each case, depending on the attitude of the wives...

2.  The Case of the Missing Libido

In episode two I discuss the case of one partner of a same-sex female couple who, like so many clients I see, had 'lost her libido'. In solving this case, we look at issues like: what is libido, how arousal does not equal desire, and the difference between spontaneous and responsive arousal.

3.  The Case of the Disembodied Clients

In episode three I discuss two cases of clients who weren't 'in their body' and therefore weren't engaged with their sexuality. In solving these cases we look at the two types of disconnection - being in your head and judging your body - and ways to become embodied.

4.  The Case of the Obligation Sex

In episode four I discuss two cases of clients who engaged sexually from obligation rather than from true desire. One case is a married woman who was engaging with her husband out of duty and the other was a woman who started a sexual encounter with a friend and then felt she couldn't back out part-way through. In solving these cases we look at how submitting to a sexual encounter if it's not truly what you are wanting is a type of sexual trauma. Of the fight, flight, freeze or befriend trauma responses, it's the last one, which is very common in sexual encounters. It's not dramatic trauma, but it is trauma, and often it is cumulative trauma.

5.  The Case of the Client who "Got It"

In episode five we look at the case of a client who after many months of working with me with her husband, came in one day saying she 'Got it!'. She realised what it is to be in touch with her sexuality, let go of the heavy weight of obligation and felt free to be herself! It's a great story

6.  The Case of the Clients who Created Time and Space for Intimacy

In episode six we look a case where a couple became intentional about their sexual intimacy and how they were able to purposefully create both the physical space and create the time for it.

7.  The Case of the Clients who Saw Each Other as Lovers

In episode seven we look at a case where a couple learned to override the brain's tendency to get complacent with well-known things - like a partner - and to see each other more intentionally. Not just as housemates and co-parents, but as lovers.

They are all fascinating and illuminating videos - so subscribe and watch them all on my YouTube Channel Jacqueline Hellyer! 

It's inevitable that you will have wobbly times in your relationship. You are different - always have been, always will be! Sometimes you’ll have different wants or opinions, sometimes you’ll have inadvertently annoyed the other, sometimes stresses will come in from outside the relationship, and sometimes there will be a misunderstanding.

Whatever is the cause of the wobble, you need to do things:
 1. Assume the best of your partner.
 2. Get curious.

You have to assume that your partner is not deliberately trying to hurt you or annoy you or piss you off in any way. You have to assume that your partner loves you and you’re on the same team. So if they are acting in a way that seems unloving or not on the same team, get curious as to why. Ask them open-ended questions to understand what is going on for them. “Babe, I’m curious what’s going on for you…” “Honey, can you tell me more about that…” “Sweetheart, I’m feeling a little confused, could you take me through that again more slowly…”

This might sound simple, but it’s not always so as we can easily trigger our nervous systems and become emotionally dysregulated, so it’s hard to stay calm enough to assume the best and get curious, rather than respond to threat and get defensive (either by going on the attack or by putting up your walls or by succumbing to the other to “keep the peace”).

When you get that familiar little internal jolt of annoyance or anxiety, take a breath to help keep your nervous system calm, remind yourself that this is your beloved not your enemy, you’re on the same side (you might need a few more breaths here!) and then reach out to them with calm, loving curiosity.

If you’re both doing this, then you’ll find it so much easier to prevent wobbles escalating into full-on earthquakes – and all the damage that ensues.

Now I do need to stress that this doesn’t apply to full on physically and emotionally abusive relationships. If you’re in one of those, you need to get out. Nevertheless, I’m often amazed at how really quite toxic relationships can turn around when both parties are committed to changing their ways, individually and as a couple. When a couple come to me and want to make it work, when they each can acknowledge that they are on the same team then there is hope that they can learn to relate better. If they can’t take that first step, if either is making the other wrong, or they are totally hating on each other, there’s no hope. But sometimes all we need is just a little crack for the light to start coming through…

My clients often wonder if they are really suited to each other. They thought they were at the start but over time the differences have become more apparent and they worry that they’re not compatible.

So how similar do we need to be to have a good relationship?


Well, it depends on what aspect of relating you are considering. In some cases yes, in others no.


In brief:


• You need to have common values.
• You need to have shared, but not the same, interests.
• You can have very different personalities.


It’s actually good to have different personalities, different ways of seeing the world, of being in the world. Different ways of thinking, different ways of feeling, different ways of expressing – these all broaden the ways you as a couple can live and experience life.


A big caveat here though is that you have to appreciate the differences, not make each other wrong for being different.


And you have to realise that the same qualities can have both good and bad aspects. Let’s take an example of a couple where one sees the other as “my rock”, solid, dependable, someone who makes them feel really safe and secure in the world. Yet, those same positive qualities also makes them a little dull, lacking in initiative, low in risk-taking and not very spontaneous… In contrast, the other partner sees the first as exciting and adventurous, bringing lots of energy and excitement into their life. Yet, those same qualities can also get overwhelming, confusing, exhausting and make them the ‘downer’ for always trying to slow their partner down….


When you can understand and appreciate your differences, it broadens possibilities. In our fictitious (but very real) couple described above, when they accept each other’s personalities, and work with the benefits, they can see the adventurous one as bringing energy and ideas into the relationship and the dependable one as bringing a sense of caution and pace to those ideas. They will welcome what each brings to the relationship. They will also reassure when needed – if the adventurous one is being too out-there and making the other feel insecure, or if the dependable one is being too cautious and causing the other to feel stifled or unexpressed.


So in terms of personality, yes you can be very different and have a very successful relationship. In terms of interests though, it helps to have an overlap. If you don’t have any interests in common, it will limit what you can do together and what you can talk about. It’s hard to feel there’s a strong ‘us’ if you have nothing in common (other than perhaps the kids and the mortgage…) It’s good to have a sport or activity that you do together – tennis, hiking, cooking, travelling, learning languages, restoring furniture, gardening, scuba diving, volunteering, dancing. Or topics of common interest, such as politics, social justice, current affairs, history, astronomy, financial investments, art, ecology – things you like to learn about, discuss and get involved in together.


On the other hand, it is also good to have different interests. If it’s an activity it gives you time apart, it gives you something that invigorates you, and you come back to your partner with fresh energy. You go and play golf for a few hours and come back with a big smile, or you go off to your yoga or French lesson and come back refreshed and ready to engage with your partner. And in these cases the other partner sees your interest and happiness and that makes them feel good, because we like to see our partner happy!


So, different personalities are good, overlapping interests are necessary. Then what about values? Well, they need to be very aligned or you are going to have problems. It’s very difficult for a very right-wing person to have a happy relationship with someone who is very left-wing. It’s possible, but not great. It’s difficult if one values health highly and the other smokes and drinks and doesn’t look after themselves. It’s possible, but not great. If one values city living and the other wants the isolation of the countryside, it’s not going to work. If one values family and children and the other doesn’t, nope, it’s not a good match. If one views ‘success’ as power, money and status, and the other sees ‘success’ as a life of creative expression, you’re going to have problems. If one has strong religious values and the other is a staunch atheist, well, that could be problematic over time. If one has a very laissez-faire approach to parenting and the other believes strict rules are good for children, that too is going to make your relationship difficult.

So, get in touch with your values early in a relationship so that you can be sure you’re aligned; focus on keeping interests in common; and appreciate and work with your personality differences.

Then, you will have a great life together!

Close your eyes. Take a breath in, exhale slowly and sink into your body. Keep breathing slowly and gently and allow your mind to wander around the inside of your body.

What do you notice? What do you feel? Is there a sense of comfort, ease, contentment? Do you feel at home in your body?

We really are turtles, carrying our ‘home’ around with us. We inhabit our bodies. We travel through life in our bodies. We experience existence through our bodies.

Yet how comfortable do we feel in this “home”? So many people don’t. They are disconnected from their body. There are two main reasons for this.

Firstly, through being too much ‘in our heads’. Prioritising thinking over feeling, the brain over the body. These people live their lives in their heads, they are a head walking around with a body ‘down there somewhere’. There is little integration. These people rely on their brains, yet by being disconnected from their bodies, they aren’t getting the information their brains need to be in the world. This leads to anxiety at worst, and a reduction in pleasure and enjoyment at best.

The second reason is when people have negative emotions associated with their body. Unlike the first type who are in their heads and not feeling their bodies, this second type aren’t in their bodies because they are observing their bodies from the outside. With this external observation comes a great deal of judgement and with that feelings of shame and disgust, even loathing.

Both attitudes to the body are completely understandable in our society, where we separate mind from body, lauding cognition over feeling. And where for so many centuries the body was seen as base and bad, particularly the female body. Add to this the fact that bodies are judged on how they look, particularly female bodies. If you don’t look a certain way, your body is bad and wrong and you should be ashamed of it. So we ‘look at’ our bodies with judgemental eyes rather than feeling into our bodies.

When you can truly inhabit your body, it feels so good! To be able to do this though can be a process. There may well be psychological processes in order to understand why you are disconnected, where those messages and beliefs came from that led you to being separate. And there are somatic processes to enable you to re-enter your body, to live from the inside out. I say re-enter, because you were certainly in your body as an infant and small child. The separation came over time.

The simplest, yet most powerful, way to reconnect with your body is to breathe, and to notice the feeling of breathing in your body. Add to that body scans, where you slowly allow your mind to wander through your body. You can start at your toes and move up, or you can direct your mind to certain parts and go from there.

If there are parts of the body that have a negative charge associated with them, if you don’t want to go there or it feels bad when you are there, that’s ok, simply pay a short visit and send love from your heart. All it means is that part of your body has been the recipient of negative energy during your lifetime. It’s time to heal it gently, start to love it again, to reintegrate it into your mind and being.

The more you inhabit your body, the more you sense in the world. Simple, subtle things bring more ease and joy. You feel and enjoy your body moving, the senses are heightened, you enjoy tastes and smells, sounds and sights, touch. And certainly physical, sexual pleasure is greater – not through intensity but quite the opposite, through savouring the gentle, soft, rich. Very little is needed for a depth of feeling that is deep and rich and blissful. Sex becomes not something that you ‘do’ or that is ‘done to’ you. It is something that is experienced on the inside, with a letting go and openness to the feeling that wells from the inside.

This is living , and loving, in a state of mindful embodiment. Living and loving not just mindfully, but bodyfully.

• If you’re having a quick peck hello or goodbye, really feel it. Let your lips transmit your love so that that moment is rich with feeling;
• If you have a few seconds to spare, let yourselves enjoy an extended kiss. Let your lips convey more feeling, allow something enticing and erotic in the connection;
• At times really make-out, like teenagers, like you would have done at the start of the relationship. But don’t necessarily then race off to the bedroom, even if you are already in the bedroom making out, just enjoy that experience for its own sake. Feel how delicious a good kiss is, without racing on to the ‘next’ step.

I was talking to a female client recently who has become very sex averse. As she described her sexual history, I pointed out that it sounded like she’d been engaging in obligation sex with her husband for a long time and therefore had been subjecting herself to low-level sexual trauma.

“Oh, no” she immediately replied, “I consented to it.”

 She paused.

 I waited.

Then she softly added: “But not on the inside.”

She realised that she was ‘consenting’ to sex due to external pressures. She thought it was something she should do and so agreed to do. But in fact, on the inside, she was screaming a big “NO”.

And because she wasn’t wanting it, she wasn’t enjoying it, so it became a traumatic experience, which of course led to her never wanting it, ever, ever again.

What I find so interesting is that this is a highly educated professional woman. I see this so often. Women who in all other areas of life are independent and assertive and empowered, but who when it comes to sex, fall into the old patriarchal trope that sex is something a man does to a woman and her only options are to succumb or run. Either she goes along with his expectations (or what she thinks are his expectations) or she says ‘no’, either directly or more passively by avoiding any possibility of it happening.

And it’s not only something women experience with their male partners, I also see plenty of men who dutifully perform sex even though they don’t really want to, or who avoid the possibility of it happening. And I see it frequently in same sex couples.

So regardless of the gender and orientation of the couple, the problem is the lack of co-creation. Without that mutuality, there is no intimacy, there is no connection, and so the sex is at best mundane and at worst traumatic.

Whenever you find yourself asking: “What do I think my partner is wanting and how can I meet that real or supposed need?” – it’s going to be bad.

The question you need to ask yourself is: “What am I feeling right now? What I am wanting right now?”

Once you’ve identified that (and if you’re not used to paying attention to your own feelings that might not be easy), then you need to share it with your partner.

That sharing of yourself is a vulnerable, intimate act. So therefore it’s also scary and not easy if you’re not practiced at it. But that vulnerability and intimacy, that sharing of self,  is the precursor to quality sex and love-making. Without it you are not present to the engagement and it just becomes your body doing things or having things done to it, which to repeat my point above, makes sex either mundane at best or traumatic at worst.

In contrast, when both people are in touch with what they are feeling and wanting, and when both are sharing that, then the couple can co-create experiences that are good for both of them moment-by-moment.

Now sometimes, it is true, there may be disappointment if one person wants something that the other doesn’t; and there may be times where we might give things a go even if we’re not sure we’re into it at that moment – but always knowing that we  can change our minds, redirect the encounter, or bring it to a close at any time. So this sharing of self and co-creating is not some idealised version of sex where it’s all perfect and there aren’t any wobbly moments. Not at all. Sex, like the rest of life together, means there will be difference – whether it’s difference in what you want for dinner, how you want to spend the holidays, how frequently you want to visit the in-laws, etc, etc.

It’s never a ‘perfect flow’. But it is real and authentic and in that is freedom and creative expression from both sides. That is consent on the inside, and that is what makes for quality experiences.

Be polite!

I’m not talking here about persistent unwanted advances at a party or bar, in those cases you may well need to be less than polite. I’m talking about how you say no to your partner’s sexual invitation.

With so many couples I work with, often one has been the ‘initiator’ and they can find it hard when they get rejected a lot. Often to the point of giving up initiating altogether. It can feel really rejecting when your partner says no a lot.

Now I want to stress that of course you have the right to say ‘no’. No-one should ever do anything sexually that they don’t want to do. What I’m focussing on here is how you say ‘no’.

For a start, think of the offer as a positive thing. Your partner finds you desirable and wants to share a pleasurable connecting experience with you. This is a good thing (just ask all the people who I work with whose partners don’t find them desirable, that’s really horrible).

So just as if your partner was offering you a slice of cake, or suggesting a date at the movies, take it as a positive offer. And just as if you didn’t feel like a slice of cake or going to the movies, you would say: “Thank-you, that’s a lovely offer, but that’s not what I’m in the mood for right now.” That way you’re letting your partner know that it’s not them that you don’t like, which is what feels rejecting, you’re letting them know that you don’t feel like that activity. Of course, your partner might feel disappointed, but that’s very different to feeling rejected.

I also suggest you follow up your ‘no’ with an authentic ‘yes’. What do you feel like?

• It might be no to sex but yes to a conversation and then spooning together as you fall asleep.
• It might be no to bedroom activity but yes to a bath on your own (and then the potential for bedroom activity).
• It might be no to sex tonight, but yes to creating the time and space on the weekend.
• And it might even be no to sex altogether because it’s not working well, so let’s go and see a sex therapist to sort us out!

So, when you receive a suggestion or request from your partner, and your first response is a ‘no’, that’s ok. Say ‘no’ politely. Then check in with what you do want. Share that with your partner and you may well find that you can create something together that is connecting, intimate and pleasurable, whether it involves your genitals or not.

“The erotic connectivity between an individual and their consort offers methods by which the transcendent or transpersonal dimensions of being-in-the-world may be cultivated.” Barratt

This is the last of a three-part series outlining the results of my research into the benefits of a great love life. The previous two articles covered personal and relational transformation and now we’ll look at sexual transformation.

The participants in the study definitely found personal and relational transformation through their sexual relating. But what is this sexual relating? Originally, I recruited the six couples who participated in my research by asking for couples who resonated with the description of ‘optimal sexuality’ defined by other researchers (Kleinplatz and Menard) and their eight criteria of: being present, extraordinary communication, intense emotional connection, erotic intimacy, interpersonal risk-taking, authenticity, vulnerability, and transcendence. All the participants related strongly to those eight themes, and also highlighted some more – ones which are less to do with their experience of the sex act, more on how the couples engage with their sexuality. Let's at look at some of them:

Safety is sexy. 

The participants have an extraordinary ability to accept the other, to listen and hear, even when the subject is challenging. By being able to discuss their desires and fears they create a safety which allows for expression and exploration. For example, on reflecting on the period of change when they started opening up about their desires, one researcher said: “That ignited a real powerful erotic charge”. Another participant described their bed as “the safest place in the world”.

Breadth and depth. 

The participants had all explored a range of sexual experiences: playful, sensual, loving, kinky, energetic, physical, depending on their eroticism. They had also discovered a greater depth of intimacy and connection, with all feeling that depth is primary. For example, the couples who have done swinging said that as exciting as the swinging is, the depth of the connection when they make love together afterwards is particularly deep and profound.

Some were finding that the breadth of sexual experience has lost its appeal in favour of depth. One male participant went so far to say that he no longer has any sexual fantasies, he only wants to explore depth. Another couple said that they had started with breadth, which they thought was great, but in the last couple of years have discovered a depth that far exceeds the titillation and excitement of the breadth.

Having said that, the two couples with young adult children coming and going found that it is interfering with their ability to engage in fantasy play and are definitely missing it! It adds a spice to their sex life that enhances the depth.

Sex permeates life. 

Sex is not something they do and then get back to life. Sex follows them into life, or at least, the vibrancy, the joy, the connection flows into life. Sex is less an ‘act’ and more a creative expression of energy, love and/or desire, that constantly flows between them. I could feel it sitting and observing them, they can feel it when they are apart. 

Non-linear approach. 

This sense of sex as an energy that flows through life also flows through a sexual encounter. The participants tended to experience sexual encounters in a non-linear way. The encounter emerges from the couples coming together and sinking into the experience. There are no ‘key performance indicators’ (KPIs) around what has to occur. There isn’t a linear step-by-step expectation of what should or will happen. There is no ‘green light’ at the ‘start’ that means they can’t finish until the ‘end’, when the man ejaculates. Instead, it is a moment-by-moment co-creation which unfolds through the awareness of self and other and the ability to communicate about intimacy while being intimate, whether verbally or bodily. In this way the encounter could be as simple as a conversation or a kiss, or could be hours of varied love-making, with or without conventional orgasms.

Pleasure-focus. 

The focus is pleasure, not orgasm, nor any other KPI. Even the concept of orgasm is different from the standard peak orgasm. The pleasure is not a chasing after brief moments of orgasm, rather there are heightened states of arousal, waves of orgasmic pleasure, whole body sensations and movements, often multiple and varied orgasmic experiences. All but one of the participants felt energy moving through them and between them at times of deep sexual connection. They find that the bliss that follows a sexual encounter, is not a drained empty feeling, but a state that carries joy through into the rest of life.

Clearly, as these six couples in my research study have found, as have so many of my clients and retreat participants - there is a lot to be gained from creating a great love life together!

“Intimate relationship…is such a provocative and powerful meeting place, where the psychological and the spiritual come together in a particularly potent way.”
John Welwood

This is the second of a three part series of blog articles looking at the results of my research into the benefits of a great love life. The last article looked at how it can transform people individually and this one looks at how it can transform couples relationally.

As I pointed out in the last article, the six couples I did the deep dive with had all done personal and relational development work, as well as sexual, so I can’t say that the sexual focus on its own led to the relationship growth, yet all the couples said that they felt it definitely contributed. They reported:

• Their relationship feels fresh and not tired
• There is lightness and playfulness in relationship
• Comfort without boredom
• Small moments of bliss throughout life
• Great trust and emotional support of each other
• Extraordinary communication: open, hide nothing, no judgement,
• Don't 'fight', can discuss difficult subjects
• Read each other, in sync
• Separateness and great togetherness – differentiated not fused
• Positive impact on others
• Heightened awareness of each other
• Feel connected when apart
• Focus on their sexuality
• Lots of touch
• Intimacy is easy, flows
• Feeling that sex is integral to relational growth

Trust.  

The term ‘trust’ came up more than any other and seems to be the key to the vulnerability and authenticity that defines these relationships. As one participant said: “trust is a thread that runs through this whole conversation”, going on to explain that her husband is "the guy who backs me up 100%. I don’t know that I’ve ever had that level of total support“. 

Other participants agreed that this current relationship is the first in which they have had a high level of trust. One man became quite teary when he said “I don’t entirely think I’ve trusted anyone, if I’ve actually trusted any of my partners, except for L”. Another man felt the same: “this is the first relationship where I’ve felt the trust to be able to be vulnerable”.

Freshness. 

Everyone felt that their relationship continues to feel fresh, even after many years together; and also that it’s light and playful.

Touch. 

All the couples have a great deal of touch in their relationship. They reported this verbally in the interviews and it was also obvious in the way they interacted during the interviews – both through touch and frequent eye contact. This kinaesthetic connection enhances their relationship, providing security, comfort and intimacy.

Sex is a ‘mutual hobby’.

The couples felt so comfortable talking about and exploring their sexuality, that it was as if for them sex is a mutual hobby, something they do for pleasure in their leisure time and which enhances their life together.

As with most hobbies, the participants also study and learn about sex and sexuality, reading books, listening to podcasts, attending workshops and retreats. They see their sexuality as an important and regular topic of conversation and discussion, not just when it is a ‘problem’ but as an ongoing creative exploration and journey of learning and discovery.

Freedom and consciousness. 

Freedom is a strong aspect of their relationships. The freedom to be their conscious, authentic selves. 

One of the men articulated this well when he says it’s “liberation from bizarre culturally constructed roles and dynamics to personal to spiritual to experiential… it’s truth“.

As an example of this conscious freedom, one way in which it manifests is in relation to non-monogamy. All the couples have discussed non-monogamy without judgement and have collaboratively and consciously come to terms with the place it has in their relationship. The agreements they have created differ, there is no one ‘correct’ way to engage in non-monogamy, each couple has determined their own unique approach:

• a fully open relationship where each has their own lover;
• swinging together, but wouldn’t do so alone;
• monogamous, although they would engage with a paid professional, which they have done once;
• open to the possibility and will address it if and when it arises;
• monogamous;
• an agreement have sex with others if it feels right at the time, as long as they share the story after. (Although this couple pointed out that the agreement almost became redundant as soon as it was agreed upon because neither has felt the need to do so!) 

So, whether monogamous or non-monogamous, each couple’s decision has been, and continues to be, a conscious choice. The participants all have a conscious awareness and engagement in relation to their sexuality and it’s place in their relationship and lives. They are not just following established social conditioning. They have examined their sexuality, they have studied and explored, they discuss it freely, often and without judgement.

Differentiation.  

These couples are very differentiated – they are self-aware and simultaneously other-aware. There’s a strong sense of respect and non-judgement in their interactions. This creates a safety which allows them to be vulnerable and authentic with each other, which leads to an erotic charge and the transcendent elements of sexuality. Having that ability to engage in such an open pure way allows the couple to take risks, expose themselves, which allows for growth and transformation. 

So all in all, there are a lot of benefits to your relationship when you focus on creating a great love life!

“When you love your beloved not merely as an unconscious strategy of ego but as an expression of the Eros of existence, outrageous love is awakened inside you, and your entire experience of life changes…. You begin to live the erotic life in every dimension of your non-sexual life. As you re-eroticise your life, you are personally transformed.”

(Gafni & Kincaid, 2017)

How is having a high-level love life transformative? I know from my years of work in this field that it is, so as the research component of my recent Masters of Science in Consciousness, Spirituality and Transpersonal Psychology I investigated this question. With six couples who volunteered to share their great love lives with me, I did a deep dive into how they found they had transformed – personally, relationally and sexually.

This article covers the personal transformation side and the next two articles will cover each of the relational and sexual.

From the interviews and discussions with these couples it was clear that they had grown and transformed and that the focus on sexuality had been a significant part of that growth, but they had all done personal and relational development work as well, which no doubt contributed. Nonetheless, they felt that the sexual had contributed to the personal and they had become:

• More confident 
• More vulnerable and open
• Less guilt, and/or shame
• More open-minded
• More gentle
• More whole
• More embodied
• More intuitive, with more synchronicity in life
• Liberated, free 
• Happier and more joyful

These qualities reminded me of a description of spiritual growth by Steve Taylor that I had read during my studies - and what is personal growth if not spiritual growth?:

"A movement towards an increased expansiveness of being, towards an increased openness, an enhanced awareness, an increased sense of connection and a more authentic and meaningful existence."

So, I asked my research couples whether they felt they had grown as individuals in this way, and they replied:

“We think in all cases our sexual development has led us to being better as individuals on all counts, particularly increased openness, connection and awareness for sure”.

“Yes, to all” 

“Once I’d started work on my own inner self, openness, to feel a true authentic and connected way of life, to “be me”, then the sexual growth bloomed. I feel all these experiences grow with each other. If one element begins to lack lustre the other seem to “pull up” and assist getting all back in sync.” 

“Definitely for me – I was outward looking and expansive already… but having the support and trust to be vulnerable and open has expanded that greatly and made me much more comfortable within my own skin and confident that I can send ever more energy out into the world. My internal world/personal connection to the universe has also increased.”

“Happiness. We’re blessed, so we want to utilise every minute of every day with our beloved; enjoy the present and look forward to and plan the future.”

“There’s no doubt that our sexual development, individually and as a couple, have supported improved trust, openness, connection and authenticity for us both.” 

The experience of the twelve individuals in these six couples certainly does indicate that focusing on sexual growth and awareness leads to greater personal growth, which is something I’ve felt personally in my own life and which I’ve seen with countless clients and retreat and workshop participants.